| (no subject) |
[Aug. 3rd, 2009|01:06 am] |
ねえ ほんとは 永遠なんてないこと
私はいつから 気付いていたんだろう
ねえ それでも ふたりで過ごした日々は
ウソじゃなかったこと 誰より誇れる
生きてきた 時間の長さは少しだけ違うけれども
ただ出会えたことに ただ愛したことに
想い合えなくても La La La La... 忘れない
ねえ どうして こんなにも苦しいのに
あなたじゃなきゃだめで そばにいたいんだろう
ねえ それでも ほんのささやかな事を
幸せに思える 自分になれた
ありふれた言葉でも ふたりで交すなら意味を持つから
ただ出会えたことで ただ愛したことで
想い合えたことで これからも...
真実と現実の全てから目を反さずに 生きて行く証にすればいい
ただ出会えたことをただ愛したことを
2度と会えなくても La La La La... 忘れない
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ねえ誰もがきっと何かを背負って
悲しく美しい孤独を描くとして
ねえそれでも人はくり返しながら
痛い程純粋に明日を迎える
生きてきたum-時間の長さは少しだけ違うけれども
ただ出会えたことに ただ愛したことに
想い合えなくても
それだけで… ありがとう
ねえ誰もが何かを犠牲にしては
新しい何かを手に入れてきたのなら
ねえそれでも変わらず誇れるものが
あるとすればそれはあなただったり
乗り越えたum-夜の場面はそれぞれにあったけれども
ただ出会えたことに ただ愛したことに
想い合えたことに これからも…
真実と現実の全てから目を反らさずに
生きて行く証にすればいい
ただ出会えたことに ただ愛したことに
想い合えたことに
これからも… ありがとう |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 28th, 2009|02:43 pm] |
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I love Okayasu. He is sooo cute, but he's also just an anime character :P |
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| Kill |
[Jan. 28th, 2009|02:42 pm] |
Well, you're just across the street
Looks a mile to my feet
I want to go to you
Funny how I'm nervous still
I've always been the easy kill
I guess I always will
Could it be that everything goes 'round by chance? (chance?)
Or only one way that it was always meant to be (be)
You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away
I can picture your face well
From the bar in my hotel
I wish I'd go to you
I pick up put down the phone
Like your favorite Heatmeiser song goes
It's just like being alone
Oh God, please don't tell me this has been in vain (vain)
I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means (means)
You kill me, you've got some nerve, but can't face your mistakes (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't turn away
So go on love
Leave while there's still hope for escape
Got to take what you can these days
There's so much ahead
So much regret
I know what you want to say
(Know what you want to say)
I know it but can't help feeling differently
I loved you, and I should have said it
But tell me just what has it ever meant
I can't help it baby, this is who I am (am)
Sorry, but I can't just go turn off how I feel (feel)
You kill me, you build me up, but just to watch me break (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 4th, 2007|12:20 pm] |
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i really miss gunbound. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 2nd, 2007|10:40 am] |
why are some people so damn driven?
and why can't i be one of them?
i hate school.
http://postsecret.blogspot.com
EVERYONE SHOULD JUST PLAY RAGNAROK======
(AND THIS SHALL EQUAL)LIFE |
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| I denied |
[Jul. 17th, 2006|09:39 pm] |
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| |  indifferent | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Far Away by Ayumi Hamasaki | ] |
For the longest time
I've been lying to myself
Said this isn't what I wanted
But it's everything I ever did
I couldn't find it anywhere
So I figured it was just dreamt up
But I'm not strong enough
To think it might actually exist
I rejected the possibility
Said I was tired of this
I didn't want to be hurt anymore
Put an end to this mess
How ridiculously I've lived
Denying the dreamer of myself
But if it were to overpower
I don't think I could surpass
By being cautious
I gave up my life
Now I want it back
The life I denied |
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| Dents |
[Mar. 14th, 2006|02:50 am] |
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| |  sad | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Breakdown by Jack Johnson | ] |
you thought I was fake
that I didn't care
your heart was mine to take
I did it on a dare
you know me so well
more than I'll know
and I put you through hell
that's what you think though
if you could really comprehend
see what's in my head
you would only know then
all the words I said
was exactly the truth
but you don't see it
your mind's made up
and I can't change it
I'm just fed up
nothing you would accept
no matter what I say
even if I explained in dept
you won't get your way
and that's not what you like
why go through such lenghts
just go take a hike
go on and create dents
in another's life |
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| Broken apart |
[Dec. 28th, 2005|09:48 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | disappointed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | She loves you Ya Ya by The Beatles | ] |
In a broken blue mist again
lost without your guidence
The concrete built up
seems to be made of jelly
What was once destiny
was just lost hope
So place me amongst your past
The only place of acceptance
And if you could bring me back
Show me the right path
And if you reach for the stars
Give it to me with only a promise
Until our decisions are made
Our heart's loss of grief
Until we can leap far enough
Our patiences unbroken
We remain soley for ourselves
And without a passing word |
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| As you see fit |
[Nov. 5th, 2005|06:24 pm] |
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| | good | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Kill by Jimmy Eat World | ] |
Sing,
and if you should be heard,
sing louder
Smile,
and if you should be seen,
smile harder
Hug,
and if you should be loved,
love louder
Laugh,
and if you should be seen,
laugh harder
Fall,
for you need to go higher
Try,
for you need to succeed
Hate,
for you need to love
Cry,
for you need to care
But live life,
as you see fit
It's your own battle,
pick your weapons
Leave behind what you not need,
be ready to face what you must
For the consequences are
upon your actions, not there's
Take heed and listen,
but do not carry through what need not be
And if you shall end up where I am
then we'll do what is neccessary
We'll sing, smile, laugh, and hug,
but if we fall or hate, we'll try not to cry |
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| Nonexistant |
[Oct. 28th, 2005|03:25 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | unsure | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | A Thousand Miles by Vanessa Carlton | ] |
So how can you understand
What is left inside of me
In a moment's peace
I've gone to a different place
A world without you and me
So how can you sing to me
When you've lost your voice
When it's all over
I want it to be happy
A more realistic place
So how can you explain
What I cannot let you feel
Where's this leading to
I've forgotten what I've asked
I don't know how I feel
So come placidly
Extend your hand
And offer me an answer
To the solutions
Of nonexistant problems |
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| Free Falling |
[Oct. 18th, 2005|11:43 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | great | ] |
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| | "If You Don't, Don't" by Jimmy Eat World | ] |
Clear up the dark end
Curve your lips closer
Fall wildy and uninhibited
Past the unknowns of yourself
Reach out a little further
Take another leap of faith
I'll sing to you my last
Share my beautiful joy
Bring you yours and mine
A false epiphany
Though it feels so right
Cast aside yourself
Grab onto my hands
It's free falling
Fly in reality
Dream in black and white
Love the heartache
Fall in love with love
Give blood to life
Close the windows in your face
Think only instinctively
Talk with easy strides
Listen to your rhythm
Walk along the steady flow
Connect with all sense of time
Swirl your being into the mist
Be lost in being yourself
It's free falling |
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| You ready? |
[Oct. 4th, 2005|01:33 am] |
So what are my poems about?
Read the upcoming locked entries. |
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| Come back |
[Sep. 7th, 2005|07:15 pm] |
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| |  apathetic | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Here's to the Nights by Eve 6 | ] |
One more minute to go
Then five more to waste
Just to sit here and express
The way I feel about you
Walking down a divided path
that we can walk alongside
but sooner or later
our hands will separate
Why did you knock on the door?
and why did I open it?
Thinking in a misconception
Surely this is different
Two extra minutes gone by
and by now I should've left
Yet I think about our distance
Why can't it close in on us?
Are you going to walk away too?
Don't leave me here all by myself,
with all my sorrow and all my pain,
all to my heart and all in vain
Can't you see I miss you?
I let you inside only half seeing
Taking granted the actions I took,
thinking of only joy
Now I've sunk down,
without you here, why did I
say all those things, why do I
find myself hurt so much?
Just come back and prove me wrong |
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| Floating Aimlessly |
[Aug. 29th, 2005|02:27 am] |
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| | content | ] |
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| | Goodbye to You by Michelle Branch | ] |
So tear me up inside again
Drop my hand into your trash
Along with the rest of my sin
And yet you put me in a crash
Eye drops for your ears
And bright pale skin
Opposites repeal
And similiarity differs
You push me towards the edge
As I grab onto strands of clouds
It turns to invisible liquid
Like reoccuring nightmares
Proving the rights into lies
Shed light and hope upon faith
Built into enourmous strength
That I cannot even see
Sealed up far away from here
Someplace that doesn't exist
Not in my dreams or in your trash
Just floating aimlessly |
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| Everything of me |
[Jul. 28th, 2005|07:46 pm] |
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| | depressed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Vindicated by Dashboard Confessional | ] |
Sinking so deeply
I didn't mean to hurt you
Watching you hurt me
But I made dumb moves
Crossed so many lines
To the end of space
Keep hating me
It wont kill your anger
Just pushes me away
Sorry I was to you
Every nothing you could know
And I tried to warn you
But you pushed in further
Turned in your hand
And I took your heart
I wanted to give it back
But you wouldn't take it
Take back your soul
Take back your being
Take back everything you gave up
Keep hating me
It pushes me further
It's all so justified
I deserved your nothing
Sorry but don't accept it
Sorry but don't believe it
Sorry but continue hating me
Believe in everything
Everything but everything of me |
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| Find the way |
[Jul. 22nd, 2005|01:22 am] |
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| | sleepy | ] |
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| | Spin by Lifehouse | ] |
Frustrated by your lack of decisions
You appear far wiser than yourself
Your words scream out precision
But you need to scream out for help
You're lost and insecure
Unaware and in a blur
And you wish you could be pure
But pull yourself together
Or you'll lose it for sure
And I wish you could see your power
Everything you have to offer
But you hide it away
Cowering in the corner
Or just wasting the day
You're more than her
Don't let yourself decay
Keep pushing harder
You'll find the way |
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| The Nothing in Me |
[Jul. 22nd, 2005|01:19 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | apologetic | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Only One by Yellowcard | ] |
What is it that you see in me?
Through you, I'm so empty
But the truth is, I know your reasoning
Look within yourself
I know you're not a rock
Especially with all your emotions
But if you would only see the truth
You wouldn't have so much discord
And I apologize
For the inactive acknowledgement
Abusive in all the ways but itself
And I would grant you a wish
To release all your fears
You are weaker in what you believe
But I'm weaker in what I don't believe
And if only you could see
That you are very well alive
Fight your system
And betray yourself
Then you would see the nothing in me |
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| Released |
[Jul. 22nd, 2005|01:14 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  wondering | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Twenty-Three by Yellowcard | ] |
And all you have left to give now
Is the same sad story of my life
I wonder about you sometimes
And what you have to share
Are you as vindictive now
As when you hugged me?
And does your emotions go haywire
Are you just a little boy?
Maybe some things about you,
I really don't know
But the things that matter,
I can look right in my heart
It doesn't bother me anymore
I've released everything now
All my answers achieved and
All to myself to share |
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| The Most Beautiful Person In The World |
[Jul. 9th, 2005|05:57 pm] |
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| | calm | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | 12.23.95 by Jimmy Eat World | ] |
I've discovered the most beautiful songs
The music I hear you wouldn't believe
how it touches my heart and soul
And I've read the most beautiful books
The words and imagery that
goes into my head, my mind
But what I've yet to meet
the most beautiful person in the world
He would be the most average person
on the outside
Or She
She would contain beauty
waiting to be found on the inside
Or He
He would make me feel like I could do anything
with one look in his eyes
Or She
She would lend me her shoulders and ears
anytime I needed it
Or He
He would see inside my soul - my sin, my mistakes
my guilt and he would bring me my purity
Or She
She would call me, hug me, just understand what
I need without my saying a word
The most beautiful person in the world
would be ugly to everyone else
For they can't see what makes my beauty so beautiful to me
And that is what makes it so beautiful
So my beautiful person, won't you reveal to me
who you are?
But until then, I will wait here patiently
for your presence, but most of all, your beauty |
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| Goodbye 2 |
[Jul. 6th, 2005|11:31 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | contemplative | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | I Will Remember You by Sarah McLachlan | ] |
I wanted a last chance
To say goodbye
I can't have you hating me
But you won't do such a thing
You don't believe in us
I don't believe in you
You're erased from my heart
And I never existed in yours
You were dear to me once
I would've died for you
Now we're stranger than strangers
We speak a different language
Maybe in your world
I'm the lint off the carpet
But it doesn't bother me
In mine you're a dead dog
I wish I could tell you my heart
But instead take my silence
It betters what we are
And anyway, goodbye |
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